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Creative Endeavors / Fall's Always Warmer than my Winter with You

« on: December 10, 2004, 10:18:31 pm »

There's so many things that I could say to you,
To try to bring you back to my front porch when the leaves fall.
They're just memories.
Your eyes lit up the room when the lights were out,
And all I saw was your face.
But you don't speak to me anymore.
And Fall was the flick of a lighter.
To get you back, should I buy a pint of whiskey again?
All those nights in my bedroom when you laid on me (led me on),
And told me about past boyfriends, yet you've never had your first kiss.
I just want to be your first kiss.
Every weekday morning, my alarm clock screams your name,
And you're the first thing in my head.
But you've got me feeling so bad for what I did.
What did I do? I could write another song for you.
Notes got old,
And field hockey games I spent with you are nothing to what I feel for you.
Phone calls - I check the phone just to see if you've called.
Every hour I've spent on the phone with you,
Isn't as long as my seconds without you.
Parties, when the nights get short and my temper is the same.
And my patience is just a metaphor to the cigarette that's burning down.
"It was all on the tip of my tongue," your tongue.
Horoscopes tell me that we should be alone . . . atleast for a while.
But I'd do anything just to be near you when I put another Camel out,
Or when I finish another fifteen-minute piano song.
But you run away; you're always on your feet,
And I just wanted to meet you again.
Don't cry, because when you cried I could hold you,
But I'm not welcome to that anymore.
All these nights on my front porch, waiting for someone to take us away,
Are just memories.
I should have taken you away right then, but I'm not welcome to it anymore.
There's a memory of you - early Fall -
On my street in the dark with nothing but an undershirt on.
And a cigarette in my mouth, and I took it out and exhaled,
Just to kiss you but I know you didn't notice.
And my acoustic on the front porch,
Sing another song of pillars - but the stage collapse.
It was once set. But I miss you and our football games.
To say that I am sorry would be the minimum, so I miss you.

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Creative Endeavors / Every Time I Die (to be so Literal)

« on: November 27, 2004, 11:20:39 pm »

Every time I die, I just happen to be thinking of you.
Let's hope this time, you're coming to my funeral.
And I heard your Mom, she made you cry sometime on Thanksgiving.
So what are you thankful for? But atleast the new year's close.
And so now, it's 2:05 and I'm smoking on my backporch,
With nothing but a t-shirt on.
Let's hope they don't catch me; I hope you don't catch me this time.
Now, I hear cans hitting each other in my neighbor's yard.
I think it might be you. Coming to visit? No, I know it's not you.
See your neighborhood's too far away,
And right now I doubt you'd waste too much energy, running to St. Joseph.
I spent all your money, thinking you wouldn't come back,
But as soon as I smoked, you called me at noon.
So every time I die, I think of the wind that's blowing.
And you said that you would smoke,
But your hit count is the last time you talked to me, divided by two weeks.
(Which equals zero.)
Come in. Come in. You see these nights of boredom growing?
I know you want to call me so just do it; it's not too late.
This paper just so happens to be one that you wrote, "I luv yooh" on.
See every time I die, I want you to know you are my last thought,
And that I only think of you. I only wish for you at Summer in my bedroom.
Fall was fine, but December will steal you.
And I'm falling with the temperature as it drops and drops.
But thanks for October. The fifth of November sucked - remember that game?
But like Adam says, if you think you might some to California, I think you should.
Except now I wish I was in California, too - so please forgive me.
And I heard your Mom made you cry again, this past Thanksgiving.
Well, silently in my head, I said I was so thankful for you, and our Octobers.
Anyway, this time I'm sober and I really am honestly sorry.

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Creative Endeavors / November 12, 2004

« on: November 11, 2004, 12:58:49 pm »

Haha

Thanks, Joey

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Creative Endeavors / November 12, 2004

« on: November 10, 2004, 06:23:59 pm »

You say it's your birthday next week.
Well, I'm sorry, I can't help you.
But sometimes things go wrong and we stay home.

I know I'm an asshole, smart-ass,
And I say more than what fits this room,
But I didn't mean to hurt you.

I finally stopped you and stalled,
But brought it up again.
And you started crying and I held you for a while.

Smoked Friday nights,
When the rain makes everything,
Look like mosaics and sometimes I crumble, too.
Then, it was okay to fall onto you.

Two o'clock on Saturday morning,
Take a hit and fall onto me.
You just turned fifteen.

Your eyes, they're always just so green.
Your hair falls . . . or something,
And you look at me.

I give you a smile and turn around.
I think you know and think the same,
Because I'm too uncomfortable with fire.

Lazy Saturday mornings,
When the rain makes everything,
Look like mosaics and I crumble, too.

I watch your car as it drives off.
I sit alone on the front step.
I promised you a better present.

But you're fifteen.
And I'm sorry your birthday sucked.
Being sad, stoned, and alone . . .

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Completely Off-Topic / Kerry concedes, Bush still President.

« on: November 05, 2004, 12:17:36 pm »

Not with all the ties!

*watches Bushes make knots with bin Laden family*

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Creative Endeavors / Close Enough to the Twelfth

« on: November 05, 2004, 12:05:39 pm »

Won't you take me back?
It was just something to do for a few months before October,
But I'm still hanging onto you.
It's been a long time since I've inhaled Friday without you.
I want to spend time with my Scorpio.
Cold October days, I can't make them alone.
I don't mean to be so repetitive but: I will never hit you again.
I won't hurt you.
See it's these cold October days that I can't live through without you.
I've had the worst thoughts: "'Smoke Scorpio', no one will remember."
Next weekend, I'm spending time with my Scorpio.
And when you sleep, I freeze in one position,
And stare at you for hours . . .
But now, I'm just so scared that,
There's some significance in the vacancy of my bedside.
So I invited you over for a few more days by yourself.
Won't you take me back?
Et oui, elle est d'accord. But I also should have known,
When she says she'd vote for Bush and she swears she was Confirmed.
But . . . she knows and we know every lonely November,
When I can't run with my eyes open that Someone's getting older.
And Someone left me alone, but she knows.
And she knows Pete's number, so I shouldn't waste time trying.

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Completely Off-Topic / Kerry concedes, Bush still President.

« on: November 05, 2004, 10:46:19 am »

There's no point in trying to help; this is America, not the middle-east, not Iraq, not Afghanistan, and certainly not Vietnam.

Bush (or whoever you consider in control and at fault with this) needs to worry about his people and his country first. Without us, he's nothing and in deep shit without millions of Americans supporting him.

Even after he is finished, worrying about us, there's no point in "helping" other nations; in what ways have we helped Iraq? There have been numerous casualties and soldiers killed in the process of trying to imprison Hussein, who - while in power - killed, probably, fewer people than have died in the past two years over seas. How is this helping anyone: the soldiers' families, Iraq and its people, the soldiers and civilians themselves? Answer that validly and you get a cookie.

(Good luck!)

It's said to be helping America as a whole - you know, the oil thing. That should help our economy - the same economy which was totally fucked when You Know Who was elected in office four years ago. Everything is so contrary or cancels something out. Instead of going to war over oil to help the economy, just avoid it all totally and DON'T elect a dumbass who WILL lower the economy - subtly if not noticeably. Instead of giving yourself a papercut and robbing a store to get band-aids, avoid it all together and don't use paper. It's simple; we're just a very retarded and illogical country. That's why I'm moving to France.

So . . . the thirty-five-year-old question remains: What are we doing over there?

Blame yourself - and if you didn't vote for Bush . . . impeach.

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Completely Off-Topic / Kerry concedes, Bush still President.

« on: November 04, 2004, 04:07:48 pm »

Plus X amount of innocent Iraqis.

:-/

Are we as retarded as we seem?

I'm moving to France.

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Creative Endeavors / Lips to Hand to Cheek

« on: November 03, 2004, 06:36:25 pm »

Thanks

Does anyone ever feel this way?

It's been two months.

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Completely Off-Topic / Kerry concedes, Bush still President.

« on: November 03, 2004, 06:08:31 pm »

Four more years.

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Polls / Brown Eyes or Blue Eyes?

« on: October 18, 2004, 03:33:45 pm »

I have dark brown - actually black (which go so well with my blonde/red/brown/black hair), but lately they've been turning dark green.

Or maybe I (along with a few others) are just convinced that they're changing colours and we're actually on crack.

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Polls / Who are YOU voting for in November?

« on: October 05, 2004, 05:30:30 pm »

A life? On the weekends? So do the rest of us. But she's still not replied - and only as I guessed, Zen. So predictable are the conservative voters; it's a given.

And it amazes me how the majority is so uninformed and stupid . . .

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Creative Endeavors / Because Petula Clark Knows

« on: October 05, 2004, 05:25:16 pm »

What'd I do?

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Polls / Who are YOU voting for in November?

« on: October 03, 2004, 06:41:52 am »

I assume, because she didn't reply, she has no other reason than her parents are for him, she wants to kick Iraqis' asses (haha, my favourite), or that "Kerry is ugly."

Those seem to be the most popular, these days.

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Polls / Who are YOU voting for in November?

« on: October 02, 2004, 07:37:07 pm »

i think anyone would be better in office than our current president

Right. And that's Democrats' (Kerry's) defense; however, THAT opinion is Republicans' defense. "Democrats are going to vote for anyone other than Bush. They don't care who's in office, which isn't how anyone should think . . ." Haha, Rush - because we all know how Republicans are perfectly . . . perfect.

It's so sad. Poor Nader. I love him - But if I was old enough, I wouldn't vote him because - as sad as it is - it's a wasted Democratic vote. You vote for Nader, it's a vote for George (not techinically, but in the long run). Not that Nader would be able to take office even if he did win . . . But hey. He's just there to let everyone know, "Hey, there's a happy medium. I'm it." But that's all.

I'm voting for Kennedy.