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Creative Endeavors / The Bait

« on: June 10, 2005, 05:16:25 pm »

The Bait

Something you need
Something you crave
Should I feed
Part 2 of what I gave?
I know it's not your bad
I set the bar
But you could've considered
I felt like litter
Make me feel that low
How do you get off?
A little courtesy perhaps?
Maybe some respect?
I know it's not forced
But "Right now"
"Tight now"
You say
You gave up when I said, "No."
A little too much though
You didn't push too far
And I thank you for that
But in some way
I still feel like crap
It's still me who's at fault
I told you it was okay
So of course you'd say
"Let's get together."
Didn't decline when I proclaimed
Givin' it up
Takin' it out
I told you my weakness
You told me nothing
Weak is me
Strong is you
I get it
So sue me
I guess I'm not cut out
No hard feelings
But the feelings were hard
Because I'm lying
"Instinct" they tell me
"Intuition" they say
If it doesn't feel right
Right away
It's not
I guess I proved I'm hot
But I feel so gross I could puke
Sickness
That's not normal if you're happy
I'm a tease
Had you on your knees
Then the other way around
Well, I did it
I'm a whore
Happy now?
Middle school title still livin'
What they told me I am
Don't I feel just great
So I guess I'll say "Good night"
Your's truly,
"The Bait"

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Creative Endeavors / The Bate

« on: May 28, 2005, 04:11:58 pm »

The Bate

Something you need
Something you crave
Should I feed
Part 2 of what I gave?
I know it's not your bad
I set the bar
But you could've considered
I felt like litter
Make me feel that low
How do you get off?
A little courtesy perhaps?
Maybe some respect?
I know it's not forced
But "Right now"
"Tight now"
You say
You gave up when I said no
A little too much though
You didn't push too far
And I thank you for that
But in some way
I still feel like crap
It's still me who is at fault
I told you it was okay
So of course you'd say
Let's get together
Didn't decline when I proclaimed
Givin' it up
Takin' it out
I told you my weakness
You told me nothing
Weak is me
Strong is you
I get it
So sue me
I guess I'm not cut out
No hard feelings
But the feelings were hard
Because I'm lying
Instinct they tell me
Intuition they say
If it doesn't feel right right away
It's not
I guess I proved I'm hot
But I feel so gross I could puke
Sickness
That's not normal if you're happy
I'm a tease
Had you on your knees
Then the other way around
Well, I did it
I'm a whore
Happy now?
Middle school title still livin'
What they told me I am
Don't I feel just great
So I guess I'll say "Goodnight"
Your's truly
"The Bate"

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Creative Endeavors / So Now What?

« on: May 28, 2005, 04:11:26 pm »

So Now What?

Sitting here in my sexy top - low cut
I wait for the phone to ring again
Everything's set but I'm in a rut
Scratching my skin to the pain
Online - getting counseling from my best friend
She's heard this all before
The second time - the second weekend
I'm sure I've become a bore
Call me a whore
What do I care?
I'm down in the trash again
Waiting for a man
How pathetic is that?!
Parents are out and I'm at home!?
Are you kidding?!
I'm fucking 18 years old
I shouldn't be here
I need to be clear
This is not my life
No one is picking up the phone
I wasted my Friday
On someone unattainable
Task uncompleted
Deleted
So now what?

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Creative Endeavors / You Make Me Happy

« on: May 02, 2005, 06:03:54 pm »

You Make Me Happy

No matter what happens in my life
You are always there to cheer me up
I don't know what I would do without you
You make my sun shine
You make my moon glow
You make my star spark
You make my sky blue
"Bless the day
You came to me
I can fly
But I want your wings
I can shine even in the darkness
But I crave the light that you bring
Revel in the songs that you sing
My angel, Montie"
Lamb
You came into my life
Like a breath of fresh air
You made me feel beautiful
And I will never forget that
You are my best friend
I can tell you anything
You give me affection
You give me comfort
You make me laugh
We think alike
I love you much
You make me happy

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Creative Endeavors / This Addiction

« on: May 02, 2005, 06:03:04 pm »

This Addiction

Well she said it
It's scientific proof
Sex equals connection
No matter how you look at it
The craving
It sticks
I can't sit still
Praying for the phone to ring
It's like you're driving
You're driving yourself insane
We should probably switch places
If you really think about it
I'll do what you want
I swear
I'll be the aggressive
I'll scratch
I'll claw
Does that turn you on?
If you lick, I'll bite
It's what I need
It's what you want
I itch for you
Climbing the walls
I lost my focus
I can't concentrate anymore
Uncomfortable sitting here without you
What to do with this agony
You stayed inside me well after it was over
If you only knew the impact
I need another hit of you
I think a dose of me wouldn't hurt
I think we're both psychotic to tell you the truth
I want to drink you up
Sniff you up
Shoot you up
Smoke you in
Now I'm all scarred up with this friction
And it's drivin' me crazy
This addiction

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Creative Endeavors / Eye Contact

« on: April 26, 2005, 04:36:30 pm »

Eye Contact

I just can't look
I swear I try
Those windows could seriously make me cry
And I don't know why
Too much depth or fear of the empty
I tell you, "You get me."
You slyly say, "Do I?"
Yes, I could just die
They bring my vulnerability
And that makes me squirm
"I've never seen blue
Like the blues he drives
In and around
And through me again."--Tori Amos
Uncomfortable silence of the stare
Not too long
I'll look at your hair
Your shoulder
Your hand
Anything but your beautiful face
Those eyes make my heart just race
They sting of mystery
You don't share too much
Not yet atleast
"Fair boy
Your eyes haunt me." Tori Amos
You probably think me weak so far
I want my being to sparkle your star
I'm intrigued by you and that's a fact
I shiver and shake at our eye contact

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Creative Endeavors / How Much I'm Worth

« on: April 26, 2005, 04:34:23 pm »

How Much I'm Worth

You ask me out
But it's not a date
Very confused at this rate
Just sex
I thought I could handle this
So why does my stomach turn at this kiss?
Because I don't know what consists of it
Lust or love?
Both are fine
But just the body and not the soul
Could you make me feel anymore cold?
I can't say it's not my fault
I have a voice - I have a mouth
But you look at me with those eyes
I could talk about them for hours at a time
And my honey pours into our space
I look away
Not your face
Sometimes it surprises me how you look
Because I never really saw
The look I never took
If I did hold the stare I would melt into a puddle
And strange how the best part was the cuddle
The akward silence is my fear
Am I thus proving the casualty?
I feel a tear
When you asked
I could've been honest
I didn't want to scare
I had my big chance
Right then and there
But it's not what you wanted
So I guess it doesn't matter
After all
You never wanted to fall
So I know I'm not your Earth
I just wanna know how much I'm worth

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Creative Endeavors / The Idiot Says Far Too Much

« on: April 26, 2005, 04:31:30 pm »

The Idiot Says Far Too Much

She talks
She yells
She cries
To get the eyes
She's so cool
Everyone knows her
Susie High School
Generic teen movie bitch
All the expensive accessories
She's so rich
Rich in love
Many loves
Guys lined up around the corner
Don't ignore her
She's more important
Than the others
She's so smart right?
No
Just words
Ooh, she knows words
Her voice - passionate
No
Just sounds
Ooh, she knows projection
Let's call on Pihra
She knows all
Julie's a push over dumbass
Truth?
"The wise woman says too little
While the idiot says far too much"

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Creative Endeavors / Lisa

« on: April 01, 2005, 05:12:29 pm »

Lisa

Lisa, you are mysterious
Lisa, you are a part of me
Lisa, you are the other woman
Lisa, why must you stick to me?
Lisa, you're beautiful

You're voice is pleasure to my ears
You're so calm and cool
You always appear to me
Everywhere

Many dreams of us as friends
I try to in real life
Do you know the secret?
Did you read it?
The secret of my connection

I want to live in your mind for a moment
What am I to you?

"She seems like a really nice girl, waht is she doing with him?" he says

I say, Lisa
You and I are alike
Lisa

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Creative Endeavors / Sticky Situation, Honey

« on: April 01, 2005, 05:03:52 pm »

Sticky Situation, Honey

You were perfect, honey
You were all I wanted a man to be
I thought you were flawless, honey
You were so damn good to me

But soon after my triumph
You started to slip away
Then when I thought I couldn't get enough
You began to go astray

So we talked and we talked
But when we talked we didn't walk
Oh no
We talked, but didn't walk
The way we said
And it is mostly your fault

But you were my destiny at first
And although I'm upset I still believe
That you can fulfill my thirst
And become something that's for me

Oh, when I look into your eyes
All I can see is the sky
Because you are so beautiful to all
And of course because of you I do fall
In love?
Infatuation maybe
But baby
It's a sticky situation, honey

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Creative Endeavors / I'm Impressed

« on: March 23, 2005, 02:51:13 pm »

I'm Impressed

She struts around about her days
How she gets drunk and what's the phase
She smokes the cigarettes
You smokes the weed
All she does is talk her greed
Which from her mother
She does feed
Every single so-called need
Self-proclaimed bitch
That is no lie
Because she whines and rolls her eyes
And tells met hat at night she cries
It makes you wonder just why?

Have to be in
Have to be out
That's what it's all about
Gotta be cool
Gotta stay hip
She will never shut that lip
Putting people down
Wanting people around
Contradicting the crown
You're so vain
I bet you think this poem is about
Don't you?
Stressing about what you can disinfect
She acts all cool but she's a wreck
Because she doesn't eat much
Then throws up what little she eats
And she expects us all to kiss her feet
She takes for granted her good life
And when put in her place, strige
Then she gets her way-
To hell with the rest
And what am I supposed to say-
I'm impressed?

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Creative Endeavors / Deep In Shallow

« on: March 23, 2005, 02:50:34 pm »

Deep In Shallow

I don't understand you
Why do you act this way?
I thought it was past influence
But the shallowness stays
Pricey accessories won't fulfill your every need
Hollowness and mone will only feed your every greed
She rambles about acceptance but creates a thick wall to hide
Maybe one day I can break the wall
And see what I can find
Is there depth to this girl who eats only one meal a day?
Is there kindness to a girl who thinks she's perfection

"That's in, that's out."
She calls others
No hate for the girl who jumps too fast to conclusions
That idiots create
Oh, the status
The sought to be of that
The goal of richness
Empty or needs to be emptied is my question
"Things don't die." she says to those who grieve
"Another funeral." she signs and rolls her eyes
Is she closed or insensitive?
"Shit happens, beings die."
She says with a 'tude
She uses that voice
And thinks it's not rude
Then when she's alone
I wonder what she thinks
Is that the only place she wallows
Deep in shallow?

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Creative Endeavors / We Were Here

« on: March 06, 2005, 02:35:46 pm »

We Were Here

Everywhere I've been with you echoes
Your blue eyes and blonde hair glows
In my mind's eye I can feel you
The wind touches my skin and it feels like your hand
I swear that when I see the sun it's our land
Because it all floated up to Heaven
When I decided I was leavin'
I didn't know what toll it would take
And now I sit here with this ache
And I know you're looking at the star
Up in the sky
Way up high
And I'm watching it too
And it's translating "I miss you."

The movies and the park
You and me in the dark
The pool and then school
You knew how to rule
Our dreams
The dances, the mall, my house, your house
It was all apart of our canvas
We had experiences no one could have
And I keep them stored in my soul
Because when I sit in the spot where we were
I feel a breeze so cold
So old
And I know
We held gold dust in our hands
...Tori Amos
We were here

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Other Musicians / Jimmy Eat World

« on: January 23, 2005, 07:21:52 pm »

The video "Work" by Jimmy Eat World was shot at my high school, all the footage is of the real students that go there and everything.  I thought that was really cool.

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Creative Endeavors / But Not Love

« on: January 16, 2005, 10:05:20 am »

But Not Love

You look at me with those icy eyes and expect me not to shiver
You touch me slightly and think that I won't quiver
We have a connection
We have a bond
You think you're cool by not accepting depth
But I know better than that
Because it's different when I look at you
I know you get the same feeling I do
You won't forget about me
We weren't expected for each other
Things happen
You can't escape lust
You can't escape desire
You can't escape trust
You can't escape fire
Oh, it's just sex you say
Oh, it'll all be okay
But once you get a taste of what I'm about
I know you'll change your mind
Have youe ver felt the affection I give?
Have you ever felt the love we'd live?
You say you're scared
Of what fearless man?
Of the touch of my skin
of holding my hand?
So, are you really saying you want none of?
So, you say you want everything but love?