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General Vanessa Carlton Discussion / My Harmonium ratings

« on: November 25, 2004, 03:50:44 pm »

I absolutely love Vanessa Carlton's new album, Harmonium.  It is absolutely gorgeous.  Here's my ratings:

+ - Even better than points given
**** - Excellent
*** - Good
** - Okay
* - Poor
& - Terrible

White Houses:  ****+

Who's To Say:  ***

Annie:  ****+

San Francisco:  ***

Afterglow:  ****+

Private Radio:  **

Half A Week Before The Winer:  **

C'est La Vie:  ****+

Papa:  ****+

She Floats:  ***

The Wreckage:  ***

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Creative Endeavors / Bitch (poem)

« on: October 28, 2004, 06:33:14 am »

Bitch

A slight look here or nothing at all and she's off
Blowin' up in your face to prove she ain't soft
She shakes her head and screams out all she wants
After she's done, she struts around and flaunts
While everyone knows that all she is is shit
You speak of reason and she knows none of it
But as much as she mouths off
She expects us to obey
But every little thing just has to go her way
Well, she's disturbin' my mood by bein' all rude
But I'm too good for her
She's just bored and needs something to stir
But she'll keep eggin' you on
Speakin' nonsense you know
She calls you dumb
But we know she is slow
She puts the blame on you
And never shuts that trap
But she's the one at fault
And all she says is crap
Oh, she's got so many friends that think she's a stitch
But meet her once and you know she's a bitch

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Creative Endeavors / Me Time (poem)

« on: October 28, 2004, 06:31:59 am »

Me Time

When the world gets crazy
When the world is sane
I still need me time
When everybody gets to me
When everything is going fine
I still need me time

You know you the best
You and you connect
You know what calms you
And can get you through the next day
Collect your thoughts
Clear your mind
Release emotions
Become free
That's me time

You are you to a T when alone
That's where you'll find it-
In your home
That word can mean so much
Home is where the heart is
Wherever that may be
But I can't go one day without
Me time

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Creative Endeavors / Slipped Through My Fingers (poem)

« on: July 03, 2004, 11:37:41 pm »

Slipped Through My Fingers

One of the most amazing things to me
Is how easy life can pass you by
If only we had that magical rewind button
We could make it how you would today
And live with ourselves guiltless
But would we ever learn?
Without mistakes we are damages waiting to be happened
Knowledge that has been thrown away

But there are those times when you would risk it all
To change a moment
A minute
An hour
The time that this particular experience took place
I feel wasted,
Left out and missed
He was right there
No one was around
Minutes before the bell
I could've done it

He asked me out so many times
And I shamefully declined
What was I thinking?
What was my reason?
The reason is so pathetic
I cringe when I think of it
Because if I would've experienced his touch
His feelings
The way he is when he's alone
I could've had the greatest love of all
Change and acceptance
Romance and teenagehood
Being there for each other
Opposites attract and complete loyalty

Now I lie in bed craving his lips on mine
Long, open-mouth
Tongue thrusting kisses
Nights without sleep because of this need
I see this girl with him and every step she takes I follow
I could be walking where her foot hits the ground
When I see the comfort she gives him
The tears just roll right down
I want to be that to him
Why didn't I do this?
He did everything I wanted
What did I expect?
I am angered with myself more each day
I will eternally hate this part of me for as long as I live
Until I conquer this feeling of need for him
I will think about him undyingly
About how his smile melted my heart
My cheeks would resemble red roses
And he would always notice that
She said I glowed of joy around this person I love so much
The times of giddiness and the times of weak knees
All those things could've deepened
But now I sadly know that
He and it has slipped through my fingers

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Creative Endeavors / As Cool As You (poem)

« on: June 27, 2004, 07:59:07 pm »

So I guess we all can't be as cool as you
We can't all obsess of our clothes and posessions
We can't all have your greatness and obsessions
But you say we should atleast try
Why?
So we don't have to cry over the things you say?
Your words don't mean a thing to me
So, go on
Bust your nut to make me feel like shit
It won't work and you'll go crazy 'cause of it
That's when I'll smile and know that all the while
You're the one who's missin' out
On what life could be if you just stop,
Look,
Listen,
To what it's all about

Yeah,
I should buy clothes I can get for less
I should drive and pray not to crash
I should listen to your every word
And take in what you're so-called intelligence applies
But all I hear is fuckin' lies
Come out of that trap you call perfect lips
When you strut 'round the room
When for real, no gives a shit
You are nothing but a dumb bitch
Who wanders for someone to trash
Well, when Nessa and I roll by in our car
You'll sit and wonder
Who's really the star?
Is it me? Is it them?
Couldn't be, for they didn't take my lead

Blah, blah
Waa, waa
Boo-fuckin'-hoo
I hate you
Ooh, that makes you feel bad
I don't care
When I see you
All I want to do is spit
You stupid shit
And we'll taunt with an evil grin just for you
"Gee, if only we were as cool as you."

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Creative Endeavors / She Is Not

« on: June 24, 2004, 09:29:53 pm »

She Is Not

This happens far too often
Why do I do this to myself?
People aren't that great Julie!
You can never replace the woman that haunts you
The expectations are set too high
You think you've found the one
You are a very very dumb girl if so
She's not who you thought
She has flaws you know
Flaws that people have
You are more superficial than her if you expect this

You thought she could be like her
She's not
You thought you had a lot in common
You don't
You act different around her
Why is that?
Don't make yourself over for anyone
Stand up and speak your mind
Replaced?
She is not
New and better?
She is not

So what?
Who cares?
She is still close to you, right?
You can stand up to her, right?
No, she is higher on the scale
She could break you faster than you know
She knows too much
I reveal so much
She reveals so little
Or does she reveal at all?
Am I playing more of the role than her?
Am I asking her and she is not asking me
Am I just another one in her book?
Does she talk about me behind my back just like she talks about them to me
Loyalty?
Where does her's lie?
I don't know...maybe that's just the word
Lie

What you want?
She is not
What you need?
She is not
Replaced?
She is not
New and better?
She is not

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Introduce Yourself / All your pictures!

« on: June 13, 2004, 12:53:55 pm »

Hey everyone, post a pic of yourself.

Here's mine:

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Creative Endeavors / Stuck (poem)

« on: June 13, 2004, 12:21:11 pm »

Stuck

For some strange reason
You stuck to me
I always felt a connection to you
I don't know why I feel this way
There was no initial attraction
But your reaction keeps the action
What will you do next?
You're unpredictible
I don't know what to expect
You say you like your women dark-haired
I smile and project
Sharing myself with you still keeps you in your place
Sarcasm is our language
Loners is our race
I look forward to you everyday
Do you wait to see me?
I hope I cross your mind sometimes
'Cause you always feel close to me
Maybe I'm just overreacting
Like I do often
But now that you are here
Should I try?
Or should I die again?
I thought I learned my lesson with your type of guys
We're so different
Wait, scratch that
Maybe you're not exactly what you seem
I'm willing to learn more about you
Are you too?
You're in my head is what you are
Fuck!
I'm just
Stuck

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Creative Endeavors / It's Possible (poem)

« on: June 12, 2004, 08:18:19 pm »

It's Possible

I can tell you anything
I haven't had that freedom in years
You bring out the old me I've missed
I feel exciting again
I've come out of my hiding
I never thought I would have another
Best friend
But who would've known
It's possible?

It's possible
For my heart that was empty to be filled in a new way
It's possible
For someone else to fill the space that has been so vacant
It's possible
For another chick to laugh and share the same interests as I
And now I am overwhelmed with this feeling
I thank you for all the things you've been dealing
It's possible

You have such a great respect and heart
I can't believe this is my new start
I thank God to have you in my life
I truly cannot imagine a strife
Between the two of us

You probably don't even know what you've done
It's the little things that make you the one
That will bring me joy
And cruise for boys
And watch our shows
And talk for hours
You're my best friend
That will never end
A new beginning
I love you so much
It's possible

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Creative Endeavors / Irony (poem)

« on: June 11, 2004, 08:11:30 am »

Irony

This letter was given to me without my knowledge of it's power
Until I opened up the thrice folded treasure that read pure beauty and rawness
My heart raced
I loved every pencil mark on this note
But it was so bittersweet
He's hard to read
I only want him as a friend
But, damnit, I've been there before and fear that I will bring the same pain I've had before
Now everything has changed
Our friendship is rearranged
And I dread tomorrow to face myself on the other side of the room
My heart hurts but is also warm
I'm sorry for this irony

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Creative Endeavors / Painting The Sky

« on: June 11, 2004, 08:11:05 am »

Painting The Sky

This dream - I don't forget it
But it flashes a blur in my mind's glowing eye
Some kind of love haunted me that night
My spine trickled and arms shook
I felt like running
Who was with me?
Was it God or my future, past, present?
Was it another dimension that is only reached when unconciously sleeping in clouded dreams
Where you can see yourself and believe?
Someone painted the sparkling night sky with an angel sitting on a crescent moon with swirls of white fluffy clouds that move around her faerie-like look
The stars like glitter
The sky - navy blue
The slideshow-looking image across my sky that I believe others saw
I have it tattooed on another layer of my skin and I wondered what that soul was thinking while painting the sky

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Creative Endeavors / I Believe You (poem)

« on: June 09, 2004, 06:09:48 pm »

I Believe You

Janet, my love
I would've loved you either way
Never changed my good thoughts of you
Janet, my love
Some people don't know how much you truly care
People are too protective of things that don't matter and punish good people for being real
To express sexuality is frowned upon to many
But some agree
Don't let them hurt you
You deserve respect
I'm always here if you feel fear
I wish I could hug you and let you know
I believe you

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Creative Endeavors / You Left Without My Knowledge (poem)

« on: June 09, 2004, 06:07:32 pm »

You Left Without My Knowledge

Strange, the way you both left without my knowledge
If I knew you'd leave I might have said what I needed to say
You are both gone in different forms
But ironically both left the same
My eyes became dull and stared into a dream as it hit me in 2 ways that you were both gone
She left after a few days
Wonder and a confirmation
He left with a 1st semester absent realization
I got chills up my arms
And my toes curled
My eyebrows quivered and you left
Long before I knew
You left without my knowledge
You left with my heart
She left but created a permanent tattoo in my dreams
He left and left a question in my mind
I call to them both before I fall asleep each night
I know now
Now that you left without my knowledge

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Creative Endeavors / The Life They Live (poem)

« on: June 09, 2004, 06:06:53 pm »

The Life They Live

It's just the life they live
They need someone to understand
To comfort them
Because no one else will
The parents don't pay attention to their children
Their friends are so superficial
That they get warped
They're insecure
And so unsure
And they feel like shit today
And tomorrow will be the same
And it's

Just the life they live
That's why they act this way
See, you call them all bad
But that's the only idea
They've ever had
Save their life
Someone
Save their life
Maybe I should try harder
To save their life
Because when I ask the question at the end they say
It's just the life I live
Because
It's just the life they life

A lot of people seem to wonder
Why they act this way
Could it be their just bad apples and spoil the day?
Well, if they had a little more guidance
They might've succeeded more
So you tell me, what would you do
If you were in their shoes?

And you can count on me
To be there for you
And I truly care
And I am here
Forgiving you for the things
I didn't understand before
But now I'm takin' it all in
You are beautiful within
And it's
Just the life they live

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Creative Endeavors / I Was Here (poem)

« on: June 09, 2004, 06:06:20 pm »

I Was Here

Everywhere I've been echoes
I've walked this path before
So many places
So much time
Oh, time

It's so strange how time works
I remember everything
My hands are filled with gold dust
It hits me softly that
I was here

Ridgewood pool, our place
So many swims
So many memories
Outside my house
So much fun
So many memories
I'm not alone with you
Everywhere we went
We were here

I walked down the hall to where we were
We almost kissed
David, it's all our's
Our place
No one else's
Room 137
6th hour
I loved our time
Our flits
Our fun
I miss you
The old you
We were there

"One with her hands open
'Don't be afraid' she said
'No one will know - just you and me'
And when it's over
I'll go back"

"You're just too used to my honey now"

Oh, time
I was here


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"One with her hands open 'Don't be afraid' she said 'No one will know - just you and me' And when it's over I'll go back" is written by Tori Amos in her song, "The Pool" on her "Winter" single.

"You're just too used to my honey now" is written by Tori Amos in her song, "Honey" on her "Cornflake Girl" single and her UK "Pretty Good Year" (part 2) single.