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Creative Endeavors / One-Sided

« on: July 29, 2005, 09:23:34 pm »

One-Sided

5 years have gone by
And I still think of you
You've inspired so many poems
5 years have gone by
And I still miss you
Hard and aching
Like I just lost you
A hole is still in my heart
And it will never close
Until you come back
But as information has shown
Not reliable maybe
You've been here all along
I can't cope with how wrong that is
Letting me die here while you've been around
Have I ever walked by you
Next to you
Stepped on your ground?
Have we just missed each other by a few steps?
Around the corner?
In the next car?
How could I not sense it?
And how could you not try?
I'm still here
But yet you don't even look for me
While I've been searching since you've been gone
I can truly feel the distance getting closer
Tori Amos
But if the impossible happens and we do meet again
It might be completely different
Disappointment
Not united
Not anymore
And this has all been
One-sided

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Creative Endeavors / Lonely pt. 2

« on: July 27, 2005, 11:14:46 pm »

Lonely pt. 2

"Days like this
I don't know what to do with myself
All day
And all night
I wander the halls along the walls
And under my breath
I say to myself
'I need fuel
To take flight.'" Fiona Apple
No phone messages
No emails
No snail mail
No door bell ringing
No plans made
Not a thought of me
"Forget about her
She'll call me
And if she doesn't
Then I'll be free."
Maybe I'm paranoid
That's not what they think
But after a while
It starts to sink
The fires out
The water ain't flowin'
Everyone's busy
Never knowing
I'm still here
Waiting at home
By the phone
Or online
Couch potato
Nose in books
Did you ever ponder
Or take a look
At what's available
For the taking
Lonely woman
Undertaking
All her duties
As Miss Happy
Stood up again
Desperate girl
Find a hobby
Dumbass twit
Find some wit
Stop complaining
All that whining
You'll be fine
So now I'll go
Isobel's still sitting on her thrown - alone
No audience but elders to help her up
And into bed
Where she'll weep
Try to fall asleep
"In a forest pitch dark
Glowed the tiniest spark
It burst into a flame
Like me" Bjork
She was mad
But more so
She was lonely

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Creative Endeavors / Always Be Here

« on: July 11, 2005, 10:01:37 pm »

Always Be Here

Always my hero
You still are to me
Hardly ever fought
People were astonished
Closer than close
The 2 of us
So much in common
You've introduced me to so much
As I've said before
Music is life and you've created that for me
I can't believe how far we've come
So long ago we were making jokes and sharing secrets
You telling me clever lies at my gullibility
You could never truly disappoint me because I'm always on your side
Because friends definitely came and went but when I needed you
You were there
Like they say
You're stuck with your siblings but you choose your friends
Well, you are my best friend who happens to be my kin
Protective of my feelings and jumps at the chance to defend
Piercing partners
Concert cats
Music junkies
You are so talented
I am fascinated every time
Your excitement is adorable
I admire you to no limit
I love you as deep as it runs
I will always understand
So if you need a hand
To make life feel more clear
Little sister will always be here

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Creative Endeavors / Passenger's Seat

« on: July 10, 2005, 10:11:51 pm »

Passenger's Seat

I thought I could do it
I really did
But come on now
I'm Julie
LD the core
I guess I didn't know my disadvantage as well as the rest of you
Well I've come to realize my million steps behind
Examples upon examples of my incapability
Watch me drive
Without the procedures
It's all fun and games until it's the real deal
Go right when it's left
Never look unless there's time
My mind boggles
Puzzles scrambled
The pretzel of my brain
You don't want that in these extremes
To kill yourself or someone else
To gamble with that, you better be sure
So I guess I couldn't prove anyone wrong
But maybe I saved a life or more
Independence has a limit
And in my case
More than others
Can I get a ride?
I don't know directions
That's called losing it
On more than one level
I wish I had what it takes
But I hardly ever have what it takes
So what's the surprise?
It's difficult
They say get out of the kitchen
If you can't take the heat
Well, sadly
I will be permanently placed in the passenger's seat

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General Vanessa Carlton Discussion / Re: The Early Show

« on: July 09, 2005, 04:57:41 pm »

She did "Ordinary Day"??  All I saw was "Who's To Say" and a little bit of "A Thousand Miles" and I watched the whole thing!  Well, anyways, she looked gorgeous!

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Creative Endeavors / Genius

« on: July 06, 2005, 11:21:49 pm »

Genius

How intriguing the 2 of you
I admire each and everything you do
Your intelligence and interpretation
Your research and translation
Your study and your strength
To sink your teeth into the project
To think with your heart and slight logic
To let go of everything for your story
To escape the world and unknowingly, you have glory
To show pure interest and not show off
To bring realization and display thought
To show us something we have not seen
To discover what has been looked over
Emotion that is not just for you
Something that has heart
Something that is unearthly
Something that is unjust being brought to the table
Pondering life and all its details
So much intellect that is never flaunted
Beauty on the inside
Beauty on the outside
Humble and true
Sincere and determined
Hungry for more
Never-ending creativity
Never-ending journey
To keep on writing
Never hold back
For not being ashamed is what brought you here
And that my darlings
Is genius

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General Vanessa Carlton Discussion / The Wreckage

« on: July 02, 2005, 09:27:03 pm »

The Wreckage

SPEEDING
INTO THE HORIZON
DREAMING OF THE SIREN
WISHING FOR HER BROKEN GLASS
ON THE HIGHWAY
IT COULD BE SO EASY

THE RHYTHM
RHYTHM OF AN ENGINE
ALWAYS MAKES ME EMPTY
I SEE THE HEADLIGHTS COMING AT ME
I CAN'T HELP BUT WONDER

FLYING
FLYING IN SLOW MOTION
WIND THROUGH MY HAIR AND
RIPPING THROUGH THE SCENERY
THAT'S MADE OF THE WRECKAGE
IT IS NOT A SECRET

SPEEDING
INTO THE HORIZON
DREAMING OF THE SIREN
WISHING FOR HER BROKEN GLASS
ON THE HIGHWAY
IT COULD BE SO EASY

What about "The Wreckage"?

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General Vanessa Carlton Discussion / Private Radio

« on: July 01, 2005, 04:42:19 pm »

Private Radio

ALL THE WORLD HAS GONE TO BED, AND I'M DROWNING IN IT'S SILENCE
BUT A SOLITUDE LIVES IN MY HEAD FROM YOU, BABY.
AND IF THIS SILENCE WAS A SONG,
IT'S RHYTHM GROOVES AND IT'S A PRIVATE RADIO
AND ON THIS NIGHT I DO BELONG IN HARMONY
YOU CAN'T DENY ME, YOU WILL OBLIGE ME, IT'S MY MELODY

WHEN THE NIGHT COMES AND NO ONE KNOWS
I CAN HEAR IT, I GOT MY PRIVATE RADIO

FIND ME OUT OF MY PILLOW
CAUSE I'M LYIN' HERE BUT I'M READY GOOD TO GO
AND ON A WHIM I LEAVE THIS TOWN
OR NOT I'LL STAY AND CHASE THE SUN DOWN
YOU CAN'T DENY ME, YOU WILL OBLIGE ME, IT'S MY MELODY

WHEN THE NIGHT COMES AND NO ONE KNOWS
I CAN HEAR IT, I GOT MY PRIVATE RADIO

CATCH ME NOT, CAN'T CALL ME LATER. MORNING'S RISING

ALL THE WORLD HAS GONE TO BED
AND THERE'S A SOUND INSIDE MY HEAD
AND IN THE DARK INSIDE MY BED
THE MELODY THAT'S IN MY HEAD

WHEN THE NIGHT COMES AND NO ONE KNOWS
I CAN HEAR IT, I GOT MY PRIVATE RADIO

What do you guys think?

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General Vanessa Carlton Discussion / Afterglow

« on: June 30, 2005, 06:54:58 pm »

Afterglow

JUST WHEN THE DAYS START GETTING COLDER,
I WALK THE STREETS I NEVER KNEW
THERE'S SOME WORDS, I NEVER TOLD YOU,
THE SOUND RINGS OUT LIKE THE TRUTH

AND IF YOU COULD SEE, WHAT'S COME OVER ME, THEN YOU WOULD KNOW
CAUSE I'M WALKIN' FREE, THE WIND AT MY BACK, BATHED IN AFTERGLOW

AS I SIT HERE IN THIS DARK ROOM, ALL I SEEM TO FEEL IS LIGHT
I SEE COLOR, I SEE THE MAROON IN THE BLOOD OF THIS LIFE...THAT'S OURS

AND IF YOU COULD SEE, WHAT'S COME OVER ME THEN YOU WOULD KNOW
CAUSE I'M WALKIN' FREE, THE WIND AT MY BACK, BATHED IN AFTERGLOW

WATCH THE SUN IT PAINTS AN ORANGE SKY
LAY ME DOWN AND FEEL THE DAYS GONE BY

JUST WHEN THE DAYS START GETTING LONGER
I WALK THE STREETS I NEVER KNEW...THE SUN COMES OUT FOR YOU

AND IF YOU COULD SEE, WHAT'S COME OVER ME, THEN YOU WOULD KNOW
CAUSE I'M WALKIN' FREE, THE WIND AT MY BACK, BATHED IN AFTERGLOW

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General Vanessa Carlton Discussion / San Francisco

« on: June 29, 2005, 08:38:55 pm »

San Francisco

I KNOW WHAT YOU DID, LIKE A BOY OF SUMMER GIVES HIS FIRST KISS
LOVE IS DANCING ON MY FINGER,
HE GOT TO THE HEART OF THE MATTER AND LINGERED
NOW I'M WALKING WITH THE LIVING
I ALWAYS LIKED STEINBACK AND THOSE OLD MEN WHISTLING

WE'RE BACK, WE'RE BACK IN SAN FRANCISCO
WE'RE BACK AND YOU TELL ME I'M HOME

TALKING IN THE MISSION OVER COFFEE
THIS IS MY EUTOPIA, MAN, I'LL BE YOUR LADY
AS THE OCEAN RISES AND THE SUN IS FADING

WE'RE BACK, WE'RE BACK IN SAN FRANCISCO,
WE'RE BACK, WE'RE BACK IN SAN FRAN

AND NOW I FEEL THE EVER AFTER
OVER RED WINE ON THE EVE OF SUMMER
THE BUZZ, THE BUZZ OF THE CITY AS WE SETTLE IN IT'S MAJESTY

I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LIKE A BOY OF SUMMER GIVES HIS FIRST KISS
YOU TELL ME I'M HOME...YOU TELL ME I'M HOME
BACK IN SAN FRANCISCO
I KNOW WHAT YOU DID BACK IN SAN FRANCISCO

What do you all think of this one?

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General Vanessa Carlton Discussion / Paradise & Twilight

« on: June 29, 2005, 08:29:39 pm »

Ok, so my threads have been moved around but finally, here's it's permanent home...lol:

Paradise

once upon a year gone by
she saw herself give in
every time she closed her eyes
she saw what could have been
well nothing hurts and nothing bleeds
when covers tucked in tight
funny when the bottom drops
how she forgets to fight...to fight

and it's one more day in paradise
one more day in paradise

as darkness quickly steals the light
that shined within her eyes
she slowly swallows all her fear
and soothes her mind with lies
well all she wants and all she needs
are reasons to survive
a day in which the sun will take
her artificial light...her light

don't pretend to hold it in just let it out
don't pretend to hold it in just push it out
don't you try to hold it in just let it out and
don't you try to hold it in you hold it in

once upon a year gone by
she saw herselg give in
every time she closed her eyes
she saw what could have been

I think this song is about a woman who felt very submissive, subordinant, and spineless in the relationship she was in and when she finally breaks apart from this person her feelings are getting lower and lower than it was before because she hasn't truly found herself yet. In a way, the "paradise" is just bliss within ignorance as some would say.

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Twilight

I was stained, with a role,
in a day not my own
but as you walked into my life
you showed what needed to be shown
and I always knew, what was right
I just didn't know that I might
peel away and choose to see
with such a different sight

and I will never see the sky the same way,
and I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday
and I will never cease to fly if held down,
and I will always reach too high cause I've seen,
cause I've seen, twilight

never cared never wanted
never sought to see what flaunted
so on purpose so in my face
couldn't see beyond my own place
it was so easy not to behold what I could hold
but you taught me I could change
whatever came within these shallow days

as the sun shines through it pushes away
and pushes ahead
it fills the warmth of blue
and leaves a chill instead and
I didn't know that I could be
so blind to all that is so real
but as illusion dies
I see there is so much to be revealed

I was stained, by a role,
in a day not my own
but as you walked into my life
you showed what needed to be shown
I always knew what was right
I just didn't know that I might
peel away and choose to see
with such a different sight

I think this song is about how perfect a relationship she had with someone was and now that it's over she has set her expectations too high to where no one can ever compare and because of this, she is alone. Stained because it will never leave her mind that someone will never measure up.

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General Vanessa Carlton Discussion / Re:

« on: June 28, 2005, 04:54:45 pm »

Yeah...whoops.  I didn't see that.

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General Vanessa Carlton Discussion / "San Francisco" interpretations

« on: June 28, 2005, 04:29:19 pm »

San Francisco

I KNOW WHAT YOU DID, LIKE A BOY OF SUMMER GIVES HIS FIRST KISS
LOVE IS DANCING ON MY FINGER,
HE GOT TO THE HEART OF THE MATTER AND LINGERED
NOW I'M WALKING WITH THE LIVING
I ALWAYS LIKED STEINBACK AND THOSE OLD MEN WHISTLING

WE'RE BACK, WE'RE BACK IN SAN FRANCISCO
WE'RE BACK AND YOU TELL ME I'M HOME

TALKING IN THE MISSION OVER COFFEE
THIS IS MY EUTOPIA, MAN, I'LL BE YOUR LADY
AS THE OCEAN RISES AND THE SUN IS FADING

WE'RE BACK, WE'RE BACK IN SAN FRANCISCO,
WE'RE BACK, WE'RE BACK IN SAN FRAN

AND NOW I FEEL THE EVER AFTER
OVER RED WINE ON THE EVE OF SUMMER
THE BUZZ, THE BUZZ OF THE CITY AS WE SETTLE IN IT'S MAJESTY

I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LIKE A BOY OF SUMMER GIVES HIS FIRST KISS
YOU TELL ME I'M HOME...YOU TELL ME I'M HOME
BACK IN SAN FRANCISCO
I KNOW WHAT YOU DID BACK IN SAN FRANCISCO

This is a hard one for me, what do you guys think?

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General Vanessa Carlton Discussion / "Twilight" interpretations

« on: June 28, 2005, 10:46:18 am »

Twilight

I was stained, with a role,
in a day not my own
but as you walked into my life
you showed what needed to be shown
and I always knew, what was right
I just didn't know that I might
peel away and choose to see
with such a different sight

and I will never see the sky the same way,
and I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday
and I will never cease to fly if held down,
and I will always reach too high cause I've seen,
cause I've seen, twilight

never cared never wanted
never sought to see what flaunted
so on purpose so in my face
couldn't see beyond my own place
it was so easy not to behold what I could hold
but you taught me I could change
whatever came within these shallow days

as the sun shines through it pushes away
and pushes ahead
it fills the warmth of blue
and leaves a chill instead and
I didn't know that I could be
so blind to all that is so real
but as illusion dies
I see there is so much to be revealed

I was stained, by a role,
in a day not my own
but as you walked into my life
you showed what needed to be shown
I always knew what was right
I just didn't know that I might
peel away and choose to see
with such a different sight

I think this song is about how perfect a relationship she had with someone was and now that it's over she has set her expectations too high to where no one can ever compare and because of this, she is alone. Stained because it will never leave her mind that someone will never measure up.

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General Vanessa Carlton Discussion / Re:

« on: June 28, 2005, 10:45:19 am »

thread moved:

http://forums.nessaholics.com/viewtopic.php?p=159012#159012