i dont have many friends who are the goody good type, all my friends are ..the people that attend parties or gets wild and stuff..and i'm like the girl who is all too good, have a 3.0 average, even geeky sometimes, blah blah blah and i personally dont care what others think of me, i'm going to be myself, and they say i'm no fun because i am not a party type girl , i dont hang out in the raves or clubs on saturday night,or smoke a cigarette just because jane is doing it,the say i am a bit lame because i choose to stay home and read a book instead or watch a little tv or get on the net..but why is the question?!why should i change because of what my friends think i am sometimes and because i dont do what they do?So, this is why i come here sometimes,to be honest i've met more friendly people on the net then what i have expierence in real life....i dont know many decent people my age who havent been a disappointment to me...most of them are scary..and too into theirselves...and dont realize life isnt just about partying all the time or trying to be all macho and worrying about who screwed who, i think i'm going to pause for a second..., people are going to have to respect me for who i am because i am tired of not being myself around others and it makes me sick, for example like i come here and i am not a really huge fan of vanessa but i think she has pretty music and i enjoy listening to her songs, but have you ever seen me talk about vanessa since ive been here? Lol and then some of you are like pming saying "why the hell you are here if you dont like vanessa" well ,look just beacuse i dont talk about her doesnt mean i dont like her..i just happen to like some of you guys here who understand me more and are really nice to talk to then the poeple i deal with in real life surrounded around me and yes some of you are really great. and for the rest of you who dont like me for my actions, ITS just WHO I AM, i love you too!....ok!..thats my thought for tonight buhbye
