Okay okay. She's talking to my sister on the phone last night right? Or something like that. And she's saying how she doesn't know if she should leave me alone at the house while they go on vacation (they left this morning) and how I'm up at the computer at night ... how she thinks I 'subconsciously' don't want them to leave... la de da de da. And she's been asking me for the past three days or so straight, "Are you sure your okay with this?", "your not apprehensive about us leaving you alone are you?", "your not hesitant about us going right?" and I'm just like yesteday, "Mom quit asking me, Its getting on my nerves." Because everytime I answer the same. I'm not going anywhere, I'm not running away again, and I'm perfectly fine with them leaving. That its not ME who's apphrehensive or hesitant, its HER. And she goes, "well I can't help it. I know your not going to run away again, honestly. But then again there is this little voice in the back of my head telling me ..." and she'll stop. I'm like what Mom!? Gawd, do you wanna go downtown so they can put a bracelet around my ankle that will show up on some computer of theirs that tells them where I am every second? Because honestly, she's ticking me off.
And I didn't 'subconsciously' want them to stay home either, I was 'subconsciously' waiting for it because I need a break from her, him, ... them. There stupid fights and little petty arguments just when everything seemed to be getting better are really starting to tick me off. I don't need it. I got enough problems.
*breathes deeply* okay, enough of my ranting.
