Does it bother you when the only thing I focus on,
Is that everything you said you'd change,
You swear you'd never touch again?
It seems so hard to want to change while numb.
I think of you only when I realize that there's no hope for me to quit,
Because I have no self-control, but we're both so insecure.
But when you combine two negatives, all we are is sure,
That there is nothing that I could say to you for you to change.
Positive is nothing and I thought you "didn't notice."
Well something bothers me, when you say you don't care if I hurt you.
Yeah, you can breathe without me; in fact,
You've "had some trouble breathing" with me around you.
So hang my picture just to watch it burn.
I'd say I'm sorry again,
And I'd guess I'll never learn that your sad, green eyes can't control me.
But when the lights go out and there's no one there to you on,
Keep saying to yourself that you don't need my company -
You've "made it this far without . . ." me. Did I let you go?
Have you figured what the problem was with one more hit, one more time?
When your voice wears down and there's no one with you who turns you on,
Can you even remember if you've changed?
Because we're so far back and I'm mixing with your last three months.
But you've made it this far.
And every weekend without me since then has been a blur. But you let go.
So follow me home. Let me know if something's changed,
Because I needed you now that I was climbing out of this hole,
With L-O-V-E carved into it, that swallowed me.
And it left me for nothing but hopes that soon you'll visit me,
And we'll spend another night on my front porch.
I thought you said you loved him, but that was December.
Now the new year's here, and I'm finally climbing out,
Shattering every light that you turned on, convinced you're wearing off.