thankyou everyone!! <3
you all are so sweet and it means alot!
ugh, my brother is so messed up right now, he doesnt even know what is happening and he blames my parents for him being on a 51-50 so he's being REALLY mean to them. I dont even want to go see him right now for that reason.
you know whats weird? i'm almost numb to all this now, its happened SO many times over the last 4-5 years it's like "oh, he's in the hospital again?" he's either in rehab or the hospital, he seriously cant go 2 days without being in one of the 2... its like an endless cycle.
my parents both doubt he'll survive this, and they barely feel he's their son anymore. lately i've felt like an only child too. its like all he cares about is his drugs and whatever gets in his way better watch out! ive been sworn at and even hit for trying to stop him.
i seriously think the only thing that will stop him is if the courts put him in jail. he's 20 and we cant make him stay in rehab. the courts dont think he's a danger to him self. but he's had like 2 DUI's, atleast 5 51-50's, atleast 5 car accidents, atleast 15-20 overdoses that have put him in the ER.... how much will it take before they think he's dangerous. i think theyre waiting till he kills himself or someone else, and thats really scary. the court system is SERIOUSLY messed up!
