Slipped Through My Fingers
One of the most amazing things to me
Is how easy life can pass you by
If only we had that magical rewind button
We could make it how you would today
And live with ourselves guiltless
But would we ever learn?
Without mistakes we are damages waiting to be happened
Knowledge that has been thrown away
But there are those times when you would risk it all
To change a moment
A minute
An hour
The time that this particular experience took place
I feel wasted,
Left out and missed
He was right there
No one was around
Minutes before the bell
I could've done it
He asked me out so many times
And I shamefully declined
What was I thinking?
What was my reason?
The reason is so pathetic
I cringe when I think of it
Because if I would've experienced his touch
His feelings
The way he is when he's alone
I could've had the greatest love of all
Change and acceptance
Romance and teenagehood
Being there for each other
Opposites attract and complete loyalty
Now I lie in bed craving his lips on mine
Long, open-mouth
Tongue thrusting kisses
Nights without sleep because of this need
I see this girl with him and every step she takes I follow
I could be walking where her foot hits the ground
When I see the comfort she gives him
The tears just roll right down
I want to be that to him
Why didn't I do this?
He did everything I wanted
What did I expect?
I am angered with myself more each day
I will eternally hate this part of me for as long as I live
Until I conquer this feeling of need for him
I will think about him undyingly
About how his smile melted my heart
My cheeks would resemble red roses
And he would always notice that
She said I glowed of joy around this person I love so much
The times of giddiness and the times of weak knees
All those things could've deepened
But now I sadly know that
He and it has slipped through my fingers
